Back at there again...

with million accusations thrown at me..I rest my case! I am not going to bring myself to that state of suffocation ever again. Thats was what i've told myself when i opened up my heart again and exposed it to risks some few years back. I welcome all sort of risks but NOT this one. NO,THANK YOU! Did i made myself clear there?

No,i'm not having mid life crisis. I'm (far)too young for that..But this is getting confusing..One minute i was told to stay and the next minute to go on with my life alone.

Oh seriously,I don't need the drama..

I'm thankful for everything so please, cut the drama out and be realistic.. I'm exhausted!

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Benarkah cinta diatas segalanya
Hanyakah itu satu-satunya

Yang menjadi alasan untuk menutup mata
Tak melihat dunia yang sesungguhnya
Dan menjadi jawaban atas semua tanya
Yang kita harap mampu mewujudkan sebuah akhir bahagia

Buka mata hati telinga
Sesungguhnya masih ada yang lebih penting dari sekedar kata cinta ooo..
Yang kau inginkan tak selalu
Yang kau butuhkan mungkin memang yang paling penting
Cobalah untuk membuka mata hati telinga

Adakah kau rasakan kadang hati dan fikiran
Tak selalu sejalan seperti yang kau harapkan
Tuhan tolong tunjukkan apa yang ‘kan datang
Hikmah dari semua misteri yang tak terpecahkan

Buka mata hati telinga
Buka mata hati telinga
Coba kau buka mata hati telinga
Mata hati telinga

Mata,Hati,Telinga-Maliq And D'Essentials

Much Love,
JSB-KK

Re-Open

I have locked this blog for few months.No thanks to that STALKER.I have learnt so much from that..

And now i'm reopening this blog again..

I hope to write more..God willing..

And Oh, It's November... :D

Much Love,

JSB

13

I can't remember much being 13. But i can tell you i enjoyed that particular age..

Fast forward 13 years later, I now sorta know why. FATE never seems to fail to amuse me on how it works with our life..AMAZING!

God's willing, 13 years from now i will remember what it's like being this age..

Hopefully..

xoxo,
JSB

p/s Eid-Mubarak to all my Muslim family,relatives and friends! This is a belated one. :D


Me and the beach. Do u notice that My 2 and a half years old Gray-MaryJane obviously needs a facelift..any sponsors? I've found another Crocs sublet here in KK. Kalau mau kirim from KL pun boleh!! :D :D

2 months later..

The minor ops on my right side eye was 2 months ago..

What have i become eversince then, PARANOID..

I'm too afraid of the possibility of reoccurring. Not a nice thing to think of. And not a good thing to go thru all over again..

I still don't have the guts to go out frolicking in the sun, on the beach eventho only God knows how much i wanted to do so..

Whenever I'm driving around during day time i will make sure that my only sunnies left is with me..(my fave FCUK was stolen and the other sunnies was broken in Soekarno Hatta Airport last two weeks) As much as i know it has no quality Sun-rays protection and soooo damn over-sized, i'll still put it on..

I hope this paranoid is a blessing in disguise..

All i know is I DON'T WANT TO GO UNDER THE KNIFE EVER AGAIN.period!

p/s: Less than 10 days to Hari Raya..Baju raya will be recycled! lagipun i will start working by 3rd day of raya...Fun eh?

And again..procrastinating..

I find it's hard to find a good time to write..

Ermmm Actually I've been busy.

No, actually I've been having writer's block!

Oh, sebenarnya malas..

How do i find KK so far?

Interesting. One minute i feel at ease, the next one i feel so miserable.

Well, i'm still adjusting.. The good thing is i've started rounding up my friends here.. It does help a lot.. :D

And oh, Selamat Berpuasa to all My Muslim Friends..

xoxo,
Jess

The Big Thing..

Is it about time?

Tell me.

How do u know it is the right time?

I have my plan..i just don't know when..

So suggest me a date please... :D

muchos grazie

The Bug...

OH HEY!!

It's been almost two weeks..been working my ass off eversince i landed here in TARAP land..

And after almost two weeks, the KL-sick finally bugs me.. :( Even worse when weekend draw closer, i will have no plan and worse, i know i will still end up working..

I know i have friends around here. I was born and breed here but hell,in case u hadn't notice it's been 9 years. Most of my friends here already lead their respective life (mostly married with kids). And what is there to talk about? The same old stories when we were 17? I don't think they are interested..

And I'm still not fully recovered from the surgery and constantly feeling fragile..Believe me when i say all the mixed feelings i've been having might lead me to a major emotional breakdown..But i hope i won't. I'm trying my best to enjoy this new phase. It just feels odd not to know anyone..

To whomever has revolved around my 9 years KL-Life stint, I MISS you guys..(Oh well,i know u guys miss me too :P )

Much Loves from KK,
Jess

p/s Was given choc-sweetness on all three farewell do i attended..Thanks Guys.. *weep*

The PD farewell

The Chillis Farewell (Bangsar)

The Tree House Farewell (DU)

HEY!

It's been a long time!

The four weeks countdown has been stretched to be a 6 weeks instead. For those who has been around me all these while, you surely understand why..

I'm still busy sorting and packing..Almost 10 years worth of stuffs and not to mention the emotional baggage too!

For almost ten years Borneo=1 day or up to 1 month max of vacation, my life is so used to juggle between two things: either work/study or friends.. Comes monday, Borneo=forever (maybe!!) and i will have to juggle between work,family and friends.. will 24 hours a day sufficient for that? we'll see..

Ahh yes,in case you guys don't know and been guessing it, YUP!!I'm moving back for good (maybe!)..

Ok,let me enjoy my final days here, fulfill those farewell do requests and say my GOOD BYE...

Countdown:4 weeks..

It has been official since i tendered the letter last two weeks (after considering all options),it's just i was given an option for it to be an open date.

But today, the news has been announced,all the way from Auckland.

And yes, it is Sad. I'm sorry if you are bummed.

Hence,i'm hiring again. If you are interested in working with the World's Largest Technology Distributor, drop me a message, :-) Thank you.

"Your reason and your passion are the rudder and sails of your seafaring soul. If either be broken, you can but toss and drift or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas. For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining. And passion, unattended is a flame that burns to its own destruction"

-Kahlil Gibran

And I am so gonnna miss this place (and whatever comes with it) where i've spent my life at for almost 10 years now. Especially Places i used to live,places i visited and most importantly, peoples i met and be friended with..

p/s Note to Janna: NO,i'm not off to US,YET!

Because.....

"it´s only when you´re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it´s only when you´re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has.. "

-L.Eugene.S